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| it's been a long while since i blogged
(on any of my blogs actually).
i dunno why, but lately i haven't felt much like blogging anything
or nothing of real interest.
it's ironic, when things are actually happening in my life
i don't feel like recording,
yet when nothing's happening,
i can still find something to write about.
how exactly does that work? as of late, i feel unease with my life,
the comfortableness and complacency about it.
now, what could be wrong about a comfortable life?
i feel like i'm not going anywhere,
it's like curling up under 3 layers in your bed.
nice and warm, but you're not doing anything.
eventually, you'll have to get out and face the cold of your room.
it feels almost like people are moving around me,
but i'm not doing anything.
i have many ambitions and ideas,
yet none of them i'm putting into action.
i fear they'll become wasted, along with my youth. maybe i need to do more research into what i want to do
and set aside a day or week even, to get things rolling
even if it's a small push
i really feel if i do nothing now,
nothing will motivate me later.
this goes for everything in my life. also, i want to invest more in people.
lately i feel as if i'm avoiding human lifeform.
but i don't really know why;
maybe i'm afraid of my social awkwardness or something.
i just really feel i need to reconnect with people again.
it's one of those things that if it's not done immediately or soon,
things become foreign and awkward later on.
i feel like i'm missing out a lot on people's lives.
lives in which i was apart of before.
what happened i wonder. it's what i feel, that this life so fleeting,
everything's flying past me,
yet i'm standing still.
if i don't move now,
i feel i'll never catch up. | | |
| i'm sure people still remember wongfu productions
so it's friday night and i'm bored at home
suddenly i come up with the idea to watch some wongfu stuff
since i haven't done so in so long
...my goodness
wesley looks quite snazzy with his new hairstyle
looks kinda like a fei jai
i'm not complaining i think he looks really cute ahahaha
yeah i sorta gave up right-aligning, for now at least | | |
| okay so the first thing i'm blogging about
after a few months is a rant
but honestly it's getting a little irritating
that i'm close to finish 2nd year, only one more exam to go
therefore i feel i should study as much as possible for this one exam.
fair enough? i would think so. the unfair part is that people keep inviting me or asking me to go out
when they know i still have one exam to do.
okay that's not the unfair part and it's not like i don't appreciate being invited,
but what is annoying, is when they make me feel guilty for skipping out. recently some complications came up along with studying for my exam
[e.g. funeral, birthdays]
yes, they're all legit reasons to leave the house
but at the same time, i feel my exam prioritizes
over most of these reasons [except for the funeral] i'm really starting to be irritated that
some people can't seem to understand that i'm not done school
therefore i don't have the free time like most people
i will be soon, so at least they could wait for me then. i'm sorry if i can't hang out with you for your birthday
or before you leave the country
but this is all very bad timing.
and it's not my fault. [*i'd like to mention that i'm not doing well in the course for the last exam]
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| MOUTHOLOGY
Q. What is your salad dressing of choice?
A. nothing, i don't eat salads
Q. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
A. pizzapizza i think
Q. What is your favorite sit-down restaurant?
A. vip vietnamese restaurant
Q. On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant?
A. 10-15%
Q. What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick off of?
A. rice
Q. What are your pizza toppings of choice?
A. pizza, cheese, tomato sauce [so original eh?]
Q. What do you like to put on your toast?
A. strawberry jam, phili or butter..maybe garlic butter
Q. What is your favorite type of gum?
A. sadly i don't remember anymore
TECHNOLOGY
Q. Number of contacts in your cell phone?
A. err, well enough that it's a hassle to scroll down
Q. Number of contacts in your email address book?
A. too many
Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
A. ocean and rain i think
Q. How many televisions are in your house?
A. 3
BIOLOGY
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
A. right
Q. What’s your best feature?
A. i honestly don't know
Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
A. blood
Q. Which of your five senses do you think is keenest?
A. visual
Q. When was the last time you had a cavity?
A. last year
Q. What is the heaviest item you lifted last?
A. vacuum..or groceries
Q. Have you ever been knocked unconscious?
A. nope
BULL[CRAP]OLOGY
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
A. never
Q. Is love for real?
A. yes =D
Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
A. i'd change it to my name =D
Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
A. white [i'm just saying this cause too many colours look good on me =P]
Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake?
A. most likely
Q. Have you ever saved someone’s life?
A. unfortuntely
Q. Has someone ever saved yours?
A. fortunately
DAREOLOGY
Q. Would you walk naked for a half mile down a public street for $100,000?
A. err no.
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
A. well it's just a kiss..and they're probably a friend, so sure?
Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000
A. NO. NEVER.
Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000?
A. ...nope, maybe for a year yeah
Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
A. ummm i guess not
Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
A. never to be able to taste anything again for 1,000$? no.
Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
A. and who's life is worth 1,000,000$? no.
Q. Would you give up watching television for a year for $25,000?
A. if watching tv is restricted to watching via television set, yes =D [there's still the computer]
DUMBOLOGY
Q: What is in your left pocket?
A: nothing
Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
A: never watched
Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
A: carpet and linoleum
Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
A: stand o__O
Q: Could you live with roommates?
A: probably
Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
A: 4
Q: Where were you born?
A. toronto
Q: Last time you had a run-in with the cops?
A: never
Q: What do you want to be when you grow up?
A: good question
LASTOLOGY
Q: Friend you talked to?
A: kelly
Q: Last person you called?
A: wynne
Q: Person you hugged?
A: jackie
FAVORITOLOGY
Q: Number?
A: 16
Q: Color?
A: white
Q: Season?
A: summer
CURRENTOLOGY
Q: Missing someone?
A: yes =]
Q: Mood?
A: la procrastinalla
Q: Listening to?
A: good vibration - kangta & vanness wu
Q: Watching?
A. the screen
Q: Worrying about?
A: chinese homework
RANDOMOLOGY
Q: First place you went this morning?
A: bathroom
Q: What can you not wait to do?
A: watch heroes, ugly betty and grey's anatomy
Q: What’s the last movie you saw?
A: Beowulf, overstated movie, but still worth the download haha
Q: Do you smile often?
A: i guess so?
Q: Are you a friendly person?
A: i hope so .__.
Q: Now that the surveys done what are you going to do?
A: get around to doing chinese homework
Let others know a little more about yourself, repost this as your name followed by “ology.”
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| a new layout with the coming of fall,
alas tis another year
and this year, unlike last year
has left me drained way faster than before.
i wasn't expecting the first week to be so exhausting
but at the same time,
i do like the change in pace.
sure everything seems a lot more congested than before
but at the same time,
it feels better to be busy doing something worthwhile
than idling at home -all the time-.
that is to say, idling isn't bad
it's good to just sit back and do nothing sometimes
just, doing nothing gets boring really fast. as well, this year means a lot of changes
and for me, i'm trying to get myself a job.
i mean, having an income for my own expenses is great and all,
though i think it's not the purchases that feels the best,
it's the knowledge of having worked and being able to spend, save, do whatever with -your- own money
that makes it feel so liberating. also, it's an act of independence for me.
i mean, if i had the chance to res,
that would be both liberation and independence.
both of which, i desire much more and more.
it's just the dark epiphanies that erupt from accumulated observations
that has led me down this path
of realization that i truly am missing a large portion of my university life.
don't get me wrong, university isn't all about partying or having fun,
for the most part, it's hard work every minute and day,
but at the same time,
there's a lot of things to do in university that people won't get elsewhere in time. i won't explicitly put forth my happenings
that for the most part are grating my nerves to nothing;
just to say now more than ever
i just want elsewhere to call home. | | |
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